Racism 💔

Racism

When I was a child, I was a smiling girl, until I discovered very early, the real face of a big part of this world… When I started to go to thé kindergarten, I noticed I was considered different from the other children. I was the « Chinese of the class » at school. And more I grew up at primary school, more there were these racists comments. They called me « Chintok » « you eat dogs?  » They stretched their eyes. « Konichiwa » etc…
There was racism at school but also in the way to go to school or home, in the supermarkets.. I was insulted by unknown people, adults too.

I hated myself to be me. I asked myself what’s wrong with me, what I have done to be treated like this. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt so lonely, I felt different, I was sad all the time, and I asked myself, why I was here, in this World, if I deserved to be here…. I had dark thoughts.

I haven’t any self-esteem, largely because of that. And even if I grew up, it’s not a past story, I suffer from that again and again. And still now, racism has a big place in my life….
At work, there is also some racism, in the street too.

I am French, I feel French since my birth. But lot of other people make me feel that I’m different, only because of my face, my skin color.

Will this all end one day ?